Tiffany_blue_box_happy

I want to be Tiffany_blue_box_happy.
I wonna have a beautiful house, a closet filled with oscar de la rentas, marchesas, Louboutins, Mcqueens, kate spades, YSLs, Bvlgaris, Pradas, not a fan of LV but would appreciate it,  Valentinos, chanels, Diors ...... And many more.
a bad ass Ride e .g Jaguars, Mercedes, a Porsche or two.
I want maids who keep my house spotless and healthy.
I want a library, not so big, big enough for atleast 600 books
And I want a baby (girl) a very adorable baby girl
                   DEAR GOD, PLEASE MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE, PLEASE.

Yes, I didn't mention a man up there or a husband,  because I don't want to NEED one, I plan on being independent, not because I don't wanna get married but because I'm scared of it,  I'm scared he won't love me as much as I will love him, which means I'm gonna be miserable my whole life trying to make him love me. I'm scared he's gonna leave me for someone else one-day or he's gonna bring In a second wife. I'm afraid that he will irritate the shitt out of me because I get irritated easily,  and also I'm afraid he'll be the unhygienic type and GOD that would kill me.

No I'm not perfect, not even close
But I hate getting hurt, it breaks me, and I believe a guy will always hurt a girl, because he's human, it's what humans do we hurt each other in big ways or small tiny ways.

You see, 60% of the few friends I have are getting married and are happy about it, the other 40 are in a serious relationship or atleast have something something going on and ME?............ Well I'm complicatedly fabulous and Most importantly  *eats chocolate cake*  happy. :-)

Death

We all know that death is inevitable but only few of us know how much it hurts to lose someone

I'm gonna start by saying IT HURTS SO BAD.
it causes you extreme sorrow, makes you miserable, it takes away a part of you and it takes a great amount of that part, it makes you soft, so soft you have to wear a mask everyday and look tough.......... But you're fragile, broken inside because DEATH.....death took away someone so dear to you.

But we shouldn't be miserable our whole lives (letter to me) just because we lost someone dear to us,  because no matter how bad we've got it someone has it worse and life goes on, it's a train, it doesn't wait for no one. We have to jump onto that train and enjoy the ride, make it worth those tears we 've lost because after a storm comes a calm and the souls indefeasible duty is to be of good cheer.

For Me
And For Dad :)