I believe that when people talk ill of me behind my back , when they try to label evil all over me , when they slip hatred and hardship under my door ,when they lie and lie and lie about me and then smile when they see me, when they disrespect me and cavil at every point i try to make , when they stand there and watch me hurt , when they walk all over me , when they twist or misconcieve everything i say to them and leave me dumbfounded ,i believe .........i believe that im the one to blame.
I'm the one who chose to know these people , to be kind to them , to be friends with them , to accomodate them , to let them into my life , to converse with them , to let them KNOW , to see me vulnerable ,i chose to sit and laugh with them , i chose to listen to them. So i'm the one to blame ,i let them cross the line ,they may not have seen the line but how could they ? when i drew the line so thin ,so faint .
Sure , ive said ill things behind your back (may God forgive me), difference is i sure as hell can repeat it to your face ,simply because theyre not lies .
Normally when i hear about what someone has said about me i say ALLAH YA SAKA MUN meaning basically may karma ruin you .
But i dont say that anymore because just a couple of years ago and early this year and just very recently i heard these ill and ridiculous things that were said about me ,fabricated stories up and down ,i swear my jaw drops everytime , and its heartbreaking and i want to hear more but i dont want to hear more you'know?.
These things are hurtful and some are just plain funny and because of the way i felt everytime i got a little peice of my story it made me regret every little bad thing/joke ive said about someone ,i mean its the same way they would feel or even worse. so now ,everytime i hear about what someone has said about me i simply pray to God to never let me talk ill about that person or anyone else ever/ever again and im glad to report its actually working :)
Now I will forgive ,wont forget anytime soon , but i assure you i will forgive no matter how long it takes
I try to stay away from as many people as possible sincerely because ive had enough not because i dont like or i'm mad at you ,i just have had enough .
WORD OF ADVICE : IF IT WONT MATTER IN TWO YEARS ITS NOT WORTH HOLDING A GRUDGE
I'm the one who chose to know these people , to be kind to them , to be friends with them , to accomodate them , to let them into my life , to converse with them , to let them KNOW , to see me vulnerable ,i chose to sit and laugh with them , i chose to listen to them. So i'm the one to blame ,i let them cross the line ,they may not have seen the line but how could they ? when i drew the line so thin ,so faint .
Sure , ive said ill things behind your back (may God forgive me), difference is i sure as hell can repeat it to your face ,simply because theyre not lies .
Normally when i hear about what someone has said about me i say ALLAH YA SAKA MUN meaning basically may karma ruin you .
But i dont say that anymore because just a couple of years ago and early this year and just very recently i heard these ill and ridiculous things that were said about me ,fabricated stories up and down ,i swear my jaw drops everytime , and its heartbreaking and i want to hear more but i dont want to hear more you'know?.
These things are hurtful and some are just plain funny and because of the way i felt everytime i got a little peice of my story it made me regret every little bad thing/joke ive said about someone ,i mean its the same way they would feel or even worse. so now ,everytime i hear about what someone has said about me i simply pray to God to never let me talk ill about that person or anyone else ever/ever again and im glad to report its actually working :)
Now I will forgive ,wont forget anytime soon , but i assure you i will forgive no matter how long it takes
I try to stay away from as many people as possible sincerely because ive had enough not because i dont like or i'm mad at you ,i just have had enough .
WORD OF ADVICE : IF IT WONT MATTER IN TWO YEARS ITS NOT WORTH HOLDING A GRUDGE
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